This heart says

Do you think it's easy being me? Do you think its easy putting on the act that I do everything? I smile when all I want to do is cry. I laugh when all I want to do is die. I want to tell everyone how my worlds fall apart each night when Im laying in the bed with tears in my eyes, pleading with God to help me. I want to let everyone know what is like to be me, pretending to be happy, pretending to like myself, if it was up to me, I wouldn't be pretending, I would actually be happy. Too bad its not.